Posts Tagged With: sadness
Not Long Now
Peaches is failing fast. G has been trying to tempt her to eat and she tries, but then just has to go outside and throw up, which takes even more out of her. I have begged her (G) just not to feed her. If she wants something, she’ll let us know. She drinks water. She [...]
Stuck
It’s a little after 3 a.m. and sleep is an elusive creature with beautiful wings that won’t land anywhere near me. I was hoping I could get through the whole month with nothing but poetry posts, but it’s not happening. After sleeping in two-hour bursts and then lying awake for nearly two hours, this is [...]
Some Moment of Every Day
Indelible The moment came. You flung out your desperate arm And scattered my walls like twigs in a gale. Your wizard fingers stripped away Every older mark, all signs of life before your touch. Your radar lips consumed my breath. I had not lived before you. After, I was marked forever, Branded by the imprimatur [...]
Funk
The snow is coming down heavy outside the window. I have a splitting headache that I’m not sure is from the cold I can’t seem to shake or the wild changes in weather over the last 24 hours (yesterday it was in the mid-60′s, warm and windy). I had my 2nd audit on the new [...]
Bad Deja Vu
My second husband died on his bathroom floor, alone. At least, that was what I was told. I found out that he was dead via an e-mail from his father who lived in Scottsdale AZ at the time. Ironic, no? You live less than 2 miles away from the person you’re still married to, and [...]
The Cure
I can’t embed this into the blog, but please, PLEASE go watch it. It will amaze you and bring you to tears, but good, really good tears. It did me. I thank one of my coworkers for sending it to me in IM today when she knew I wasn’t feeling up to par. Happy April!
When It Hits
It comes out of nowhere with no particular regularity. I can’t predict it to cycles of the moon or my body or the seasons or anything like that. G would of course link it to some kind of “anniversary” in PTSD-speak, but I reject that. It happens when it happens. I deal with it and [...]
Tender
I’m a work in progress. Most of the time I try very hard to think about the things I say when I’m communicating with others whether it’s face to face or in some other medium. Usually I manage to stay calm when other people are twittered, but every now an then a situation will come [...]
It’s That Day Again
I miss her.
Winner – week of 04/30/12!
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